I see a board in reception that detailed my journey to my End2End along with sponsorship which has over £245 pledged so looks like store will have raised over £350 for me.
Many say well done as I pass them throughout the day & I feel slightly embarrassed at what I should reply, I genuinely still can't believe we did it me, Lorna & Dan.
I tell them both I can't find any motivation to do a final blog but I know I must.
Shall I explain that living with a chronic Illness exaggerates your whole life but you need to be careful how you handle this. My drive to enjoy life & leave a legacy these last 8 years led to this End2End but now it is over my lows & negative thoughts are now being magnified. I need to find balance.
Where is the motivation to go to gym, where is the motivation to do anything?
You just need to look at how long it has took me to write this blog to see the lethargy setting in but I see the signs straight away now and I will fight them every minute of everyday as I know the dangers if I do not.
So I owe it to those many who supported me to write a final blog thanking them.
How many will be surprised at my boss emailing my horoscopes which were scarily accurate & motivational.
How in one 15 minute meeting while training for this a fellow cyclist gave me the best advice ever & was eventually my biggest donator.
No punctures.yet met a fellow cyclist who had 3 in one day.
2 major car crashes on route yet I can say not once did I feel unsafe on even the busiest road.
The desent down Shep my biggest climb where I couldn't brake, petrified as I was travelling so fast.
I left majority of my tablets at home but didn't tell Lorna so I did this by actually not taking my daily tablets.
I think I have a couple of blogs left especially final total raised. I just have to make sure I stay positive.
John
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